F. Kafka - Letter to his Father
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Letter to his Father is an odd read. For one, it's extremely personal - of course, being a literal letter to a family member - so reading it feels transgressive, voyeuristic, wrong. It's also a deeply heartfelt account of a strained father-son relationship and, in my opinion, the experience and consequences of having parents with narcissistic tendencies.
The letter also deals with Franz's self-observed inability to commit to marriage, his flowing relationship to judaism, his brutally negative self-perception - planted by his father's criticism, deepened by his own insecurities, and reinforced by his percieved failures in a terrible self-fulfilling prophecy.
In talking about his father (or rather, to him), Franz reveals a lot of familiar observations: how his father mercilessly (and hypocritically) criticised and insulted others, how he felt constantly attacked by what he disliked, demanded gratitude for providing his children with a financially stable and free childhood, or suffered for his children, and yet was unwilling to change; how Franz's mother acted as refuge when his father raged, and the good, even happy moments between conflicts.
Also familiar behaviours to anyone who's also struggled with similar issues: how Franz is willing to do anything for friends but not family, how he struggles between raging against his childhood and feeling trapped by it, how he's unable to talk clearly and decisively to his parents, especially regarding his childhood.
Franz, surprisingly, interprets (or at least that's what he writes) this relationships as a clash of hereditary personalities, his father's strong, Kafka descent opposing to Franz's (and his mother's)1 meeker, Löwy self - an arragement in with they're both blameless.
This interpretation of his condition is interspersed with explicit criticism of his father's handling of Franz's childhood, suggesting some amount of internal conflict about it; however, it seems his relentless insistence on self-flagellation prevails in the final letter.
This characterization of his father as a victim of himself, not as an abuser2 is in my eyes one of the two great tragedies outlining the letter, the second (and better known one) being that the letter never actually reached Franz's father, his mother choosing not to pass it on.
In any case, Letter to his Father is an interesting and well-written insight - even if an occasionally heartbreaking one - into the life and inner world of the author, whose other work I look forward to reading.
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There's some evidence to suggest Franz possibly suffered from gender dysphoria, which to me does fit with his apparent association with his mother (though this is surely also due to seeing her as refuge from his father), and his repeated references to being insecure about his thin physique from an early age.↩
This interpretation, again, may be a projection of my own experiences onto Franz's. However, given the scenarios described in the book (though obviously they're a small glimpse into the relationship between two people across decades), I feel like this judgement is warranted.↩